Where’s the Hope?
Sunday, May 18, 2025
Trigger warning: This is a Christian post, where I discuss Christianity and the Bible extensively. As a former occultist, for years, I struggled with despair when I looked at the shape the world around me was in. I knew from personal experience that in the US, both political parties were corrupte... .. read more..
Why Doesn’t My Family Remember, Too?
Tuesday, April 15, 2025
One question I am often asked by email from survivors is “Why doesn’t my family remember these things? Why am I the only one remembering?” or even, “Why are my family members denying that anything happened when I try to confront them?” Family dynamics are complicated, and especially so when sever... .. read more..
Never Give Up part 3: First part of chapter 39
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Chapter 39: Foundational Programming: Believe, Love, Obey Foundational programming for the Jesuit Order involved programming to believe, love and obey Satan and the Fathers. These are the three system-wide basic commands or rules that underlie all other more specific programs. This programming be... .. read more..
New podcast on delta and immortals
Saturday, March 1, 2025
Hi, I just did another podcast with Emma on the Imagination podcast. Here is the link: .. read more..
New Podcast on Healing
Monday, February 17, 2025
I just did another interview with Emma at the Imagination podcast on the process of healing that I used. Please be aware that I mention Christianity. You can hear it here: .. read more..
Book Three: Chapter 37
Monday, February 10, 2025
Chapter 37: Nine Years of Healing While the encounter with Jesus had infused me with new courage, I still struggled with constant extreme pain and panic. These symptoms come from the punishment programs that are triggered whenever parts think thoughts or take actions that defy their programming, ... .. read more..
Podcast Interview about Deltas, Immortals
Saturday, February 1, 2025
I just did another podcast interview with Dan Duval on the topic of delta programming and immortals. You can view the post here: .. read more..
Matthew’s Song
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
Mattheo (Matthew) was the primary father I loved when I was growing up, and during this time I both loved him more than anyone in the world, and hated him for his abuse of me. Complex emotions, indeed, which I dealt with by dissociating them into different parts before healing. When I was in my ... .. read more..
Never Give Up Part 3: Getting Free
Monday, January 13, 2025
The third and final part of my autobiography is finally on Amazon (at least, the Kindle ebook version; the print version should be out by tomorrow). Here is the link: https://a.co/d/ghH1prC This book follows my life for the past 20 years, and I also share about the programs that I found internall... .. read more..