Matthew’s Song
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
Mattheo (Matthew) was the primary father I loved when I was growing up, and during this time I both loved him more than anyone in the world, and hated him for his abuse of me. Complex emotions, indeed, which I dealt with by dissociating them into different parts before healing. When I was in my ... .. read more..
Never Give Up Part 3: Getting Free
Monday, January 13, 2025
The third and final part of my autobiography is finally on Amazon (at least, the Kindle ebook version; the print version should be out by tomorrow). Here is the link: https://a.co/d/ghH1prC This book follows my life for the past 20 years, and I also share about the programs that I found internall... .. read more..
From The Struggle: Chapter 6 Illuminati Child
Monday, December 16, 2024
I am posting part of chapter 6 from my second book, The Struggle. I hope to have the third book edited by mid-January. Hidden Illuminati Child I am 16 years old and Anagram (Ana), my Illuminati cult presenter, is fronting in Germany. I am at one of the Illuminati’s private medical facilities. The... .. read more..
Podcast about Alice in Wonderland programming
Thursday, August 8, 2024
I recently did an interview with Emma at the Imagination podcast on “Alice in Wonderland Programming”. I went into more detail here than in my previous podcast. You can hear it at the following link: .. read more..
New Interview, discusses Alice in Wonderland
Friday, June 28, 2024
A few days ago, I did another interview with Dan Duvall. During the interview, I discuss Alice in Wonderland programming and other topics. Here’s the link to the interview: .. read more..
Never Give Up Part 2: The Struggle
Sunday, June 23, 2024
I have just published book 2 of my autobiography, Never Give Up: Part 2 -The Struggle. This book discusses my life from age 13 1/2 until age 43, with discussions of how childhood programming impacted me during my teenage and adult years. I also share my first two attempts to leave the cult, and w... .. read more..
Never Give Up – Chapter 8 Excerpt
Friday, June 21, 2024
This is one section from Chapter 8 in my autobiography, Never Give Up, about sex parties. Trigger warning: mentions sexual abuse of young children I am four years old. My twin sister, Elizabeth, and I are naked, covered only with dark blue velvet cloaks. Around our necks are jeweled collars, and ... .. read more..
Never Give Up -Chapter 3 Excerpt
Sunday, May 19, 2024
I am sharing here some excerpts from my book, Never Give Up. This is the first portion of chapter 3 in the book. Chapter 3: Toddlerhood My birth name is Lucient, but my daily name is Lucia. I am usually called Luce. This is the name of my ‘cult host’, or the part that presents […] .. read more..
Documentary on ritual abuse
Monday, May 6, 2024
There was a documentary done on the 50Voices project (I also participated in this). The link to the documentary, which seems pretty good, is here: https://www.kla.tv/28954 .. read more..
Never Give Up: Chapter 1 (continued)
Friday, April 26, 2024
I will be posting some excerpts from my autobiography, part 1, Never Give Up here. Below is more of Chapter 1. Bonding to the Fathers As an infant, each day was broken up into programming, training, comfort, rest, play times and attachment/bonding time on a strictly regimented schedule in the fac... .. read more..